::Sprinted 400m with my bag and faulty shoes to chase down bus 54 today. Damn cool to run so fast even with a 12 kg bag and actually reach the bus just barely on time. Was having a super super high heartbeat thereafter. I think it's quite bad for my body, but since the damage is done, I can't really do anything right now right? Hahaz. Was sleeping on the bus until I reached the stop, where the bus driver was desperately trying to wake me up in vain at first because I was RIGHT BEHIND him, as in you know those seats which people rarely sit on? Yup. I was sitting there. Don't ask me why. Hahaz. I just felt like doing it, plus most people wouldn't try to sit next to me there because most people wouldn't like to sit there.

Ranting! Hahaz.

Actually reached home by 6+.

Stressed by the heavy workload and all. I mean... Try going abroad and back twice, killing 4 weeks, together with another 3 weeks killed due to SRP and SYO rehearsals and noteworthy concert. With that, my CTs were completely crap because I didn't do a single tutorial nor did I actually study really much for the CTs. So basically I was in deeeeeep shit. Hahaz. Yup. An OBOE. Hahaz.

Listening to Corrinne May now. Hahaz. Really good singer, but I guess her image could improve. I guess you can't be exactly perfect all the time can you? Hahaz. I've seen very few true all-rounders, other than those you would call "pure endomorphs". =P

I can cry over her music I tell you. It's so emotional. I guess that's what really touches a lot of people's heart. Interesting how being swinging single completely kills some emotions in your body because of fear of rekindling passion.

Does anyone care to guess what's going on in my head?

Piano exam's on 25th August. And learning to relax REALLY helped me get through the lessons very well. Hahaz. I have to thank my teacher for that. She's really good. =) Hahaz. After that I could actually play the violin much better because learning to relax is what I should do.

Quite an irony. I always asked some people to relax even though they're not uptight or angry or anything, yet I can never relax. I guess the greatest sinners are the best advisors, for they know what's wrong. They're experienced it so much that it doesn't really matter already.

If your body aches, and your heart's empty, what do you use to keep you going on? Many people found religion as a great way of cleansing themselves of their sins, finding strength to continue in life due to various reasons. I guess the truth I have to say about it is that no matter what religion you choose, no matter what trouble you meet up, it's all within your capabilities to draw strength from wherever you wish, and stand up. It's just whether you're able to find the key. I've found mine. I've lasted without a religion(much to many people's shock) for all 7 years of my hardship years. Some might scoff and say that I'm an idiot not to believe in what they believe, but I guess I never really found the reason to believe in what they do, because I have depended very much on my own means to find my way.

I still remember a really wise senior of mine once commented that it's really hard to do proper philosophy without having an anchor of religion or any sort. But I found out where I anchored, and where I stand on this land. I found my anchor in me, and where I stand would be a small particle flying about everywhere, in search of the truth, wisdom and love.

I guess religion is one form of anchor. But I found another. I had found something within me, so resilient, that even if my body were to be torn into pieces, emotions running amok, it'll lead me back to it and form me once again. That something is my heart. =)

I rarely found anyone reaching a certain intellectual level without ever having a religion on their backs before. It's so hard to reach that level. I still have no idea where I stand, but I hope I'll be able to reach there on my own. "Taking the more trecherous route" might prove more worthwhile when I reach a new level in understanding, for my sights would have far exceeded that which I may see if I had taken the easy way, for trial and error, teaches what's wrong and what's right, and what sins I would prefer to commit than avoid. Such is the way I lead my life. I walk on this road.

I look up ahead at the rest of my life with dread, anticipation, excitement, nervousness, fear and immense curiosity. Only time will reveal me, those around me, and the truth that lies beneath all of humanity.::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 7/26/2005 06:36:00 PM:.
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::Wow... Long time since I lost blogged. Anyway this is for easy access and much easier for me to mention names without worrying about getting found. Hahaz. =) This shall be all about the Vienna trip!

To start off, I had to go to Glen's place for like 4 days before I could go home 2 days before the trip because my family was down with conjunctivitis due to the Adena virus and I was the sole survivor. To keep me safe for the trip my family had sent me away to the protection of another warm home. =) It was fun there, but I missed home.

The rushing to the airport was okay because of the jam, but I got there pretty much average because some people were REALLY late, but that didn't matter because everyone was still checking in their luggage. It was fun, meeting up all the SYO members. Quite a few were commenting the excitement of going on the Vienna trip had died down even though they had been ultra excited at first. However, that obviously didn't stop them from the chance of having fun. =) We went through the gantry and were lost looking for some leisure activities before we boarded the planes.

There was this jazz band at the airport, not spectacular but *okay* lar... Then we went Burger King to get some food and went to play X Box. Fun stuff =). Then went to the gate and boarded the plane after some good jokes about tying ribbons in the hair. It's amazing how I can still remember it. Perhaps it's because I had a picture of me with a ribbon in my hair taken. -_-. Things I do in the name of fun. Oh yes... The FREE PHONE SERVICE ROCKED! Hahaz. Not because i used it, because it's the best way to observe the different people who used it. From the one flirting to the one talking to the mother like a good mummy's boy. Hahaz. It was interesting and funny. =)

Plane ride, I was playing with Zhaohan's gameboy and had a heck of a great time at the starting talking to Catheline(I dunno how to spell... sorry). Found another good friend who thought the same. She loves philosophy as well. Way cool. Then ended up sleeping most of the rest of the way. Didn't even get to really watch the movies. Hahaz oh well. =X

Reached there in the morning, and at a time we usually don't even wake up at, but it doesn't matter. Helped out with the carrying of the stuff and away we went into the city of Vienna! Hahaz. It took around 15 minutes to reach Vienna proper, and we were given a sight tour of Vienna IN THE BUS. I hate group tours, but there's no choice. It's ultra bad for photography as well. It's only for people who love to rush rush rush. Hahaz. I like to rush, but not on a holiday! Hahaz.

We went to Schonbrunn later on to explore it. Hahaz. The place was not bad at all because I'd been there before. The architecture was beautiful, scandals within the castle was useless to me, the garden was amazingly beautiful. Oh yes, a comment was that the flowers were more beautiful than any flowers in Singapore. Which was pretty much all true. It was beautiful. Oh yes, everyone was shocked at my "cold resistance skill". Went around pretty much without a sweater and all. Everyone else was freezing. It was a good thing I went to America before going there first, didn't use my sweater at all throughout the whole trip. =X

Oh yes, SWEATER, not SWEATSHIRT. Dammit would Miss Cheong get it right for once!!!! First it was Windbreaker, then Jacket, then SWEATSHIRT. It's a SWEATER!

Lunch was back at the hotel and it was shit. Hahaz. I finished everything except for the apple. That was as much as I finished for the rest of the days. There were quite a few days that I didn't even touch the contents of the lunch pack. Btw, I believe they call it "Mittagessenkaufe" meaning lunch boxes, that's why she keeps saying boxes? I dunno. Hahaz. But it's DEFINITELY not a box.

Was trying to fix Glen's luggage because that smart guy had his combination lock completely screwed. We tried from 000 to 999 more than 6 times and couldn't even open it. We finally ended it later on by enlisting the help of the tools guy to come over and wrench it out with a screw. Glen tipped him a dollar euro for it. Hahaz. Interesting how a young man would tip for services. *Wonders where he got his courtesy* Hahaz. I shall not go on. =P

We then went to buy some grocery for the night, such as water and yoghurt drinks/milk. We ended up buying CARBONATED mineral water which I kinda grew to like later on but ended up not being able to drink due to illness. But it was basically a fun day because there was tons of crapping. I bought CHIO chips which tasted great. Jem bought some chocolate which tasted heavenly, and the girls nearby were buying CORNY biscuits and some other interestingly named brands of different goods. Imagine if they knew what it meant in Singapore. Hahaz. Think the company would actually get more money because people will be so amused. ;)

We then had dinner downstairs in the hotel and rehearsal later on. Everyone was so shagged the rehearsal wasn't too fruitful but it got us warmed up for the competition. The dinner was always, and I mean ALWAYS, three-coursed. Not bad, but not spectacular. Guess it's not RICH enough for me. I'm a nuts for rich food. Such as peanut butter. *mouth water* I'm a fatass!

Slept super early that night because we were shagged from the flight and the competition was coming up. We needed our sleep. Meanwhile, the room was about to lapse into the "week of utter mess" because there was non-stop partying and strewn apparels all about in the room. Hahaz. It was still amazingly fun. =)

Woke up really the next morning, and the most orderly morning of the whole week. Hahaz. The rest of the trip was just a huge mess everytime we woke up. Hahaz. Breakfast was not bad at all. Really enjoyed it. Started loving the preserve from that day on, and had two bread of it every morning every chance I got, which wasn't very often I found out. Hahaz. Then we went to Austria Centre to practise.

It took quite a long ride to get there, no wonder we had to wake up early. The practice was not bad, and I got a few nice shots which I hope come out just as I thought. Hahaz. Problem is that I was using a 400 film dammit! Hahaz. Should've switched to 800 early. Doubt most people understand this. Hahaz. The Beijing Orchestra didn't seem to like us a lot, neither did we really like them, but it was damn cheesy that we had SO SIMILAR attires. However, I now do appreciate the KFC look and the girls' velvet dresses, because it looks so much better than the tootness of THEIR KFC look and the girls wearing "garbage bags". Oh yes, the girls tend to have a lot worse figure and FACES in the Beijing Orchestra. Hahaz. Toast to Singapore! =X I'm a superficial dick! Hahaz.

Had lunch which... Was like yesterday. Only ate the bread. Hahaz. Then played bridge till we had to go for the opening ceremony. It was very symbolic of international friendship, because Israel and Germany were playing together. In case anyone forgot, it was the bands from Haifa and Jugend Blasorchester Manfelder Land(short terms... long ones I can't remember) right? Hahaz. They weren't really good lar, but they were not too bad. There were a few good players, but overall the coordination was bad and the rendition of Poet and Peasant, had one of the judges commenting "The worst rendition I've ever heard." But it was still great, because the international friendship idea was brought through with the Jews and Germans cooperating for such a huge festival. =) Cheerios to them!

We chionged back to the hotel and changed and chionged to the disco after that. Hahaz. I lead the pack to go to the front. The first disco night, most people were still wearing rather conservative except for a few who I kinda expected. It's okay to wear like that lar, as in -not- conservative, especially since they weren't wearing SKIMPY clothes. Hahaz. Imagine the effect on the rest of the YO boys. *tsk tsk tsk* Hahaz. But I lead the dance to the front of the Blues Brothers. Man... They're good. And the guitarist was sick. Was enjoying it like mad, lost my voice, and actually danced, shocking a lot of the girls nearby because I can dance. Hahaz. But this was the "warm up" night. And Tedson and the contrabassoonist tried to compete. I guess you should guess the results of that lar. Hahaz. Zab was hot dancing! Hahaz. But she didn't dare to do much of it. Seriously, Zab, if you're reading this, you shouldn't be so afraid of dancing in front of others. You dance well and good figure, flaunt it when you should ;). Hahaz. And Yixin, amazingly, has a good figure and can dirty dance pretty well. Interesting facts you learn about the guys in your own orchestra. Sadly most guys couldn't dance nor really made an impact to me much that night. Hahaz. But it was still fun. =)

Went back to the hotel thereafter, with Glen falling asleep on my bed, Junhong flaming me about my bridge skills, Jeremy falling asleep on his bed, and the rest of the people chatting with me throughout the night. I was chatting with Ike for quite a while, and then went back, tucked Glen in, removed Jem's shoes, and slept on Glen's bed instead.

The next morning I fell ill. Yes. COMPETITION DAY. Hahaz. Greatness. Fever and sore throat, plus loss of voice. Man it was great to play for the competition no matter how many mistakes you make(because you're ill). But the whole thing was great, though there were a few problems by the winds, and a few mistakes here and there by the strings, it was ultimately a great performance and the response was great. Hahaz. I thought that we had a good chance at first judging by the reaction of the crowd. Hahaz. It was a magnificent moment.

We then returned to listen to Sprague Strings Orchestra, which pwned RJ ass with their Bloch Concerto and their Dag Wiren Serenade. Felt damn nerfed. Hahaz. Though I didn't play much, it was a bloody nerfing period. We then went back to the hotel where I get lots of rest because I was running higher and they were going to Pottsching, which ended up to be the most sentimental concert that anyone experience. And I MISSED IT. Hahaz. But I was ill. If I went there I'd probably die now. Slept for 8 hours. Hahaz. Then when they came back we had fun in the room and all. I was taken aback by the immense amount of concern given to me by all my friends. =) I love SYO! Hahaz. It was so warm. I was ill the worst and they treated me so well... I wish that I could do more to repay, perhaps a treat? Thanks Annette and Huiqi for the lozenges and kettle. Thanks Glen and Jeremy for the concern. Thanks Sherilyn for the medicine! Thanks Joyce and Bev for the concern as well. Thanks Ike for being a great new friend. =) More cheerios to everyone else who helped but the groggy me can only remember these names for now. Will add more in in time. Hahaz.

The night was quite funny, I was supposed to yank people away from Remus' room which didn't quite work because all the girls were madly playing games and didn't want to change room. Hahaz. Someone called over and told us we were on Channel 12 but it ended up to be porno... And there were QUITE A LOT OF GIRLS IN THE ROOM. Hahaz. Sorry to kill your rep, that Someone. Wanna blame then blame the people in your room=P.

Was the last to sleep again, and the next morning was a contemplation moment for me, whether I should go off with the rest for Vienna Woods and go for the concert at night. Hahaz. It took quite a while before I realised I didn't wanna waste another day in Vienna once more, even though I DID hit 40 degrees in the morning. But I started sweating so it was pretty good. The monastery was an interesting place. I'm really impressed by the work of Giovanni whatshisname. Hahz. Great Italian sculptor. Oh yes, the whole of Europe seems to love GILDING everything. Hahaz. They remind me of the gold-crazy people.... Can't say much more for fear of stuff... =X.

We then went to some market to buy stuff. I got some lozenges from Dr Kee after telling him that a pharmacy was nearby, and I bought 8 litres of drinks while Glen, Jeremy, Chin, Ioannes, JingRong bought like 300 euros worth of chocolates to bring home. It was -sick-. Hahaz.

That was pretty much the only thing really noticed there that day because we had to go somewhere else for the concert and it would take quite a while to reach there. We saw most things in the buses. Like HUGE SUNFLOWER FIELDS! I love sunflowers. They represent me. Seeing so many actually kinda assures me that perhaps that there're more like me actually. Which I found quite a few. =) I'm glad. Hahaz. The meadows are just beautiful there in the outskirts of Vienna.

Was taking photos for the concert because I didn't want to affect the music with my semi-conscious state. I was being the best photographer I could be. I'm glad. But the camera jumped from shutter speed of 1/60 to 1/500 for no reason at all. HIGHLY annowing. But I got over it after a while. Wasted a few films because of that but it's alright. I scrimped enough.... I didn't even use all the films. =X

I finally got the sense as to why Pottsching was so well-received. The people don't really experience much great music even though just only outside of Vienna because no one really comes over to these small communities to give them the gift of beautiful music. And there were comments that our concert was the best performance they had ever heard. =) Standing ovations. I'm proud of us! =)

Mozart concert thereafter. The bassoonist was sick for the bassoon concerto, with perfect runs and a beautiful, almost matching that of a saxophone's. The timpanist doubled as snare drummer and cymbalist for the Blue Danube which impressed all of us, and the skills of the whole orchestra just left me in awe.

That night I had just gone to sleep early because I was way too tired. Snored, as according to my roomies but it's okay because it's not annoyingly loud, just annoying. Hahaz. But they were watching some things on tv. Funniest thing is the "*eyes glued to tv* Hey stop it! Stop watching ****, it's DISGUSTING!". Hilarious stuff. I was half-sleeping then. Imagine how bad it must've sounded. With the tv right next to my ear. EEPS! Haha.

The next day was just another day. Hahaz. LIKE REAL! It was when we were about to know our results! Hahaz. And man I was ready for the second day at the disco. Wore my Levi's Jeans. Hahaz. The morning was aggravating because we had to let the winds perform with the China Strings that day, with Chester BRAGGING about it. But what happened was that we tied and that the China Winds were... Quite off compared to ours lar... So yup. Anyway, we went to perform Dance of the Yao again. Hahaz, there was a judge which commented that Metamorphosis was really well-played, but it was hard to enjoy that piece. Hahaz =X Modern without much of a true harmony. But it was still a not-bad piece I must say.

Anyway, after we performed, we went back to the bus to put our stuff and the cellists got chased to the other side of the road because of a rampaging car speeding down the roads. Hahaz. Then they decided to start playing over there! Hahaz. What a sight! Then joined in the violinists. I wanted to join in but as the photographer I had a job to do and I fired one whole role. All in all, Every section had people in, with Rayner being the lone bassists pwning the day with his mad improvisation skills to take over the horn. It was really fun.

Then it was back into the hall for the announcement of the results. Hahaz. Let's just say it was nerve-wrecking. It was cute that Jipson was made to do a drumroll for each award. Then it came to us. Everyone was a nervous wreck. Including Mr Lim. We stood a good chance because the Chinese Strings might be technically perfect, but the whole orchestra was emotionless, as compared to the not-so-perfect-but-so-expressive SNYO. Hahaz I'm bragging. But anyway, it was announced that it was a TIE!!!! WITH BOTH FIRST! Hahaz. I was so happy that I cried. Stood up an applauded happily. Was appalled by the fact that the Chinese National Flag was waving like mad. You don't wave your flag like that in the middle of a cultural hall and act like it's okay. It was seriously so... Act. Sigh... But I guess it's THEIR culture. But they still did well. Though I honestly think that we should've won it, PLUS get the outstanding performance award. Apparently because they're a more internationally recognised group, that's why they brought our marks down to tie with them.... I mean... WTF! Oh well... They were disappointed that we had tied with them lar... I mean we should've won. By any means they should've been happy. Politics politics politics. Irony!

Anyway we were trying to rush off but couldn't because the bus drivers weren't around, therefore we ended up having free and easy, and the 6 of us did some taboo stuff not allowed to be mentioned here. Hahaz. Bought sunglasses, bread and cheese(which ended up spoilt at the end of the trip) that trip. And some TABOO stuff. Hahaz. Whee=P. Taboo!!!!

Hahaz... That night was fun at the disco. Hahaz. The first thing I did was to start teaching Ioannas who was able to do quite a bit by the end of the hour we were there. I was pwning ass then. Hahaz. The Australians saw and came over, but couldn't compete, the Chinese girls came over but couldn't keep up. Hahaz. Then Steph went on stage and I joined her(quite willingly, fine). Hahaz It was fun lar. Taking centrestage. I still remember this 11 year old Taiwanese girl who kept doing a warped from of dirty dancing, looking disgusting and keeps trying to grab all the attention. Quite annoying. Hahaz. Wanted to throw her off the stage. Anyway when SYO started a circle, I jumped in to start the ball rolling, brought Wilbur in, and then brought Jipson in, when some Chinese girls charged in and danced with Jipson. Feed for gossipers later on. Hahaz. But it was fun. Meanwhile Ioannas, Zhangyi, Joanna and a few others were trying to dance the dance from me. Hahaz. So fun.

Went out of the disco in 1 hour because Miss Cheong asked us to. It killed the feeling of the disco lar... Even though she was thinking that it's okay for us to go back after we told her when we reached the Rathausplatz. I had reminded her of the way to get there and stuff like that. Quite interesting how I became the person who led us there despite being reluctant to leave. The dance programme was not bad, a lot of contemporary abstract dance, which most of our people didn't understand so I didn't get the point of being there actually, but oh well. The night was quite uneventful. I was just walking around killing time. Oh yes and I learnt that you should pay for a toilet when you see a paying toilet, because chances are all the nearby toilets are just as well paying or the only public toilet around is atrocious, and using it was a BAD idea. Hahaz. Yup. Got me?

Didn't sleep that night because halfway through enjoying our spoils of tabooness, an event came up and I had to deal with it. Became Papa while Andris became Mama for that whole morning. And got called that thereafter. Sheesh. Funny part was when the joke was going on, saying that "Papa and Mama got a son, and the son was really loud." I said that I was the son and Glen was the Papa! Hahaz. Man... I thought that scenario was really cute. Hahaz. It was the last night before we left. Hahaz.

It affected a lot of people, that night. And the effects last till now. Sigh. Hope that clouds will clear one day, with only bright sunshine battering down on the poor hearts...

Wednesday was a trip to SALZBURG! I was spending most of the bus ride helping with things lar. Hahaz Quite interesting lar... The whole morning was really awkward... But I LOVED THE APPLE STRUDEL! Hahaz. There was this honesty system thing running in the shop, and the Apfel Strudel was sehr gut!!! Hahaz. =). Then we went off into Salzburg. It was nice to revisit that little city. Hahaz. Little and city doesn't match but it doesn't matter. Went into the shopping alley. And THEY WENT SHOPPING! Then we had the best lunch ever in Austria, because we went to this Argentinian restaurant, had great food and San Jose wine. Magnificent! ;) Hahaz. Best lunch there ever.

Then we went back to Vienna. Quite uneventful, but the trip was sleepful. Hahaz. But I had slept early that night because I was still slightly sick and groggy and needed rest for the next day. Hahaz. It was quite funny. I fell asleep next to Andris and woke up next to Weicheng and Tiapyang. And apparently my snoring was a good joke because when everything was silent then could the whole room hear my snore. Hahaz. Oops. UNGLAM! So unglen=P.

Hahaz. The next day was about the shopping! Hahaz. It was window shopping until we reached this REALLY raunchy shop in the shopping district. Hahaz. It was way cool to buy all the stuff... From foreplay dice to singing schlong! Hahaz. Hilarious stuff. ;) I bought a LIVEWRONG band to burn those posers with the livestrong bands. Hahaz. Way fun. And bought a Simpsons poster and a dogs poster for my siblings. HAhaz. Way fun day. Bought some more drinks and taboo stuff and then left for lunch.

After lunch we went to another side of the Vienna city, where we saw a lot of good buskers. I bought this trio's CD, they're called tonARTrio. Really good. And I also bought 5 scoops of icecream there. Great day all in all.

Night was just havoc. Hahaz. End it there.

Coming back to Singapore, I was sitting next to Cathleen again. Hahaz. Didn't talk much this time but it was nice. =) Slept for most of the way. Hahaz. And reaching Singapore was nice, but I'll really miss the Vienna trip. It was rocking.... I'll miss the trip with YO a lot. Hopefully Japan would come next year! ;)

Footnote: Thanks to everyone for making the trip such a beautiful trip. And I -do not- like ANYONE.

Acknowledgements:
Glen and Jeremy for being great roomies throughout the trip. Hahaz. You guys rock! Hahaz. Never stop the jokes and parties! Keep on partying.

Andris for being such a great friend for those who needed it. It was priceless I believe.

Zhiwei for being such a good friend, and *unknowing* entertainment=P. Hahaz shall not say much.

Joy and Ruolin for being so understanding and sweet and nice.

Sherilyn, Joyce and Bev for being so sweet and nice as always. Hahaz. And bring out the mothers in each of you! ;)

Shaun, Ruilin and Herbert for being rocking neighbours! Hahaz nice seniors as well.

Zab, Lijia and Mifi, for being great guests in the room.

The whole winds sections for being such funny guys and great people, as well as allowing me to crash your party.

Those RI gang members. Hahaz. Gang members. Yup. You guys spiced up the whole trip.

The whole viola section. You guys ROCKED!!!!! Hahaz.

Dr Kee, for taking care of me so much.

Miss Cheong and Mrs Ho and Mrs Wong for caring for me so much.

Last but not least, Mr Lim, for being a great friend and conductor. A great role model and leader for us all. =)::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 7/17/2005 07:38:00 PM:.
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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 5/12/2005 12:25:00 AM:.
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You are the color red. You are the most
controversial of all the colors. You are often
easily angered, but as easily as you got
excited, you come down. When angered, do you
have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards,
do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe.
But you're incredibly generous, and, odd
enough, needy. You love to hate, and
sometimes, you hate to love. This color
describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad
situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're
in a good situation, you're extremely
optimistic. You're painfully tempermental, and
sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with
an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy
talking to people and being social. But aside
from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're
attention-needing and attention-getting. This
color is associated with lust and desire--and
you are both lust and desirous. You're a
protective person when it comes to the people
you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and
powerful (not to mention intelligent!).


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Not exactly there lar... But quite true. I'm red and blue. NOT purple. Just red AND blue. =P::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 5/02/2005 10:55:00 PM:.
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::Sorry for not being around for quite a while...

My life has gone into a tumbling mess. Don't really have anyone to turn to now... Especially since bestie's busy with her life and I have this massive void. What makes it worse is that my family isn't exactly making anything better.

I have a feeling I should have at least gone for something in the EXCO of SYO. I didn't submit because I forgot and was too late when I remembered. Then comes the results... -_-. I feel bad already lar damn it.

And I might have to withdraw from the Vienna tour. AND might have some problems with SRP. I'm -kinda- pissed. Oh yes, and I forgot to get the form from the jazz board. How could I? I'm an idiot. I feel damn tired. I feel damn lost. Oh yes, the problems with Vienna and SRP would be due to a family trip to America on 21st May to 5th June. And there's Jazz concert and Chamber during that period. Along with a quartet I was supposed to be in for a wedding AND part of the SRP official attachment. Oh yes, to top that up, we have a wonderful GP Common Test during that period.

Wish I had someone to cry to.

It's quite amazingly alone sometimes when you find the void and you're the only one having it. Majorly.

This is like not the lowest point of my life only because I'm actually finally truly confident in myself in some things. And that I've been put up to 3rd desk for Vienna trip. =) I have chance. Hahaz. Just have to work hard.

I'm COMPLETELY exhausted and I have a massive headache everyday. I'm always this close to breaking down, and close to being insane... Happily insane.

I'm an idiot aren't I?::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 4/14/2005 10:24:00 PM:.
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::Wow.

It's quite interesting how the hate-taggers seem to be the least interesting of all, using the same words over and over again. Even gets my name right! Kudos to him/her/it/them/whatever.

Oh well... I'm actually quite used to it by now. Really seems to be the same people doing it over and over again. Apparently they have that much time to spend on me. I should feel honoured shouldn't I?

Anyway, life's been pretty good. Hahaz. Having lotsa fun(explains why I haven't been blogging). Slacking is like my biggest hobby now, and I have a tendency to not do homework. Hahaz. Oh man. =X It's quite amazing how I still survive tutorials. =)::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 4/07/2005 05:22:00 PM:.
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Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

WHee....

Nice answer =)

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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 3/31/2005 09:51:00 PM:.
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