::Man...
I just composed a song for like 3 and a half hours.
Hahaz
Thanks Kenny for your advice.
Gonna sing it in school tomorrow I think.

Today was a pretty uneventful day. Hahaz. Other than Jeremy and Alvin wearing TCHS, Lizhan wearing SJI and Shirin and Michelle wearing RGS being the most interesting sights of the day. Hahaz. Those "TCHS dudes" look not bad in them. Hahaz. As well as RGS. Lizhan looks more suave when in SJI too. Hahaz. It's a good change for all. Hahaz..

Some TCHS bugger went to pull my sweater today when I was just having fun. "Wanna act cute is it?" was the reason. Wanted to wack him. I have no idea what gave me my numbness in feeling, even anger. Hahaz. Perhaps...

Hon Loong made us sign up for Talentime! So it's me, him, Sunnie, Colin, Qizhao, Kevin, Rachel and Vivian going to sing Stand by Me tomorrow for audition. Hope we get through. Hahaz. Dunno if we'll make it. Will be playing accoustic guitar =) and singing. Hahaz. YAY!
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/31/2005 10:25:00 PM:.
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::Today had nothing happening and A WHOLE LOT happening. Hahaz. Irony? Life's filled with that.

Firstly, I shall hereby state that I'm officially a monk. I'll be counsellor for all you lost souls of love and hopeless romantics. But no requests of getting to know a girl "just for you" or "trying to matchmake me" or I'll just wack you. Hahaz. I've rid myself of all evil. Yup. Hahaz.

Noticed a guy who wore the same specs as me on my way home. Hahaz. Kinda cool, because we're kinda both the "bigger build" though he has muscles... Quite a lot of it... So it's quite flattering. But of course we didn't talk lar... It's just my observation. Drank a tasteless soya bean on the way home as well. It's weird... Hahaz. But oh well... 70 cents to buy something to quench my thirst is not too bad. Hahaz. Though it was absolutely tasteless. And oh, my trainer asks me to eat more fish and protein. Hahaz. PROTEIN DIET! No lar... I'm not so crazed.

Got a huge compliment today when my neighbour commented that I slimmed down quite a bit. *smirk*. And SUPER happy when I saw that I'm only 20% for body fat mass. At this rate I can reach 17% in just 3 more weeks! Hahaz I better work hard! =) Ran like 3 km in 20 minutes today... Almost DIEDED. Hahaz. SUPER tiring. Then I accidentally hit the stop button which kinda saved my life, and went to walking and running soon by the 22nd minute. Was super tired. But I accelerated into 11.2 when I was in the last minute or so, completing 3.5km for today. Hahaz. So shuang. Oh yes, 3 km in 20 minutes is because I walked at 6 and ran at 9.5. I'm freaking mad. HUGE leap. Luckily I didn't go pale or light-headed though when I was doing weights I seemed so. Hahaz realised my quadriceps cannot make it, 50 pounds only! And my arm extensions was a misley 40 pounds. What crap is that? But my arms were tired and so were my quadriceps, but that's just crap. And for the assisted bench press I only did a freaking 20kg thing and I couldn't do both reps of 10! Didn't complete the second. I'm crap lar. Hahaz can't even do the assisted pull ups' last set because I was too tired. ONLY 6 and I didn't do it. Crap crap crap. And it was assisted! And oh yes, my intensive abdominal workout was freaking tiring also. I'm quite weak. Hahaz. And I need to split my triceps. Hahaz. It looks like just a clump covered by fats now. Hahaz. I'm getting into the "bodybuilding" fit. Yup. Hahaz. Madness.

Anyway, saw Michael come in as well. Hahaz. He was working without the trainers. Then the senior trainer took him in. Hahaz. Cool. Then we left to swim for a while, then we went for the sauna. Hahaz. I slipped and fell while going to get my card. Now I have a nice half-abrasion-half-cut thing on my right forearm. Hurts like crap. Hahaz. Anyway, back to the sauna, the first time I entered the pool at 42 degrees celcius, I was like "omg that's freaking hot". Little did I know, that later on, jumping into the other pool at 18 degrees and jumping back into the 42 degrees is the whole point of the thing. Hahaz. And the coldness was BAD. REALLY bad. I was like freaking numb. Hahaz. But it was super fun. Especially ducking my head in. Hahaz. Now I know why Hong Shen wanted to do it. And Alvin the trainer advised me to too. Hahaz. Michael had to leave early so I was chatting with Mr David Kan. Hahaz. Another new friend of mine. Apparently he's the retired CEO of Crocodile and just donated a whole lot of money to the Tsunami victims. I was talking to a philantrophist! Hahaz I feel honoured. =) Got his no. Hahaz. And I told him about the Zouk thing... Perhaps we could get sponsorship from his son for the shirts for the party. Hahaz. It'll be way cool. But I better not test my luck. He's a great guy and I wouldn't wanna trifle with a powerful man like him. But it's just an idea. He's really nice and a devout christian. Had a bit of talk about religions with him. Hahaz. I'd like to get to know him better. Smart man plus great clout. Good person to follow. Hahaz.

Got his number and left for Music Essentials. Realised my stomach was grumbling as I went there. Hahaz. After finally buying the music and getting my new Music Essentials card *beams*, I ate Old Chang Kee's. Hahaz. Fishball and curry puff(my fav). Hahaz. And then took 174.

174 changed its route and I thought I was going the wrong way!!! Mistake mistake mistake. Hahaz. Then I walked/ran another 2 km. Hahaz. Smart. Hahaz. But it was fun. Noticed a lot of interesting things on the way, like the ugly habits of Singaporeans, leaving litter all around, the stickiness of the Chinatown floors, the audacity of some Singaporeans with FLABS, and how some motorists are really smart. Hahaz. And the lovely Chinese New Year atmosphere(lovely my foot). SUPER crowded and tons and tons of food all around. Hahaz. Quite fun but intimidating. Definitely darn messy. Hahaz. It was a mistake, but it was a beautiful mistake. Really makes me think...

Everything reminds me of something. My whole mind is interlinked by only one thing. That's just sad. Hahaz. But I moved on...

Oh yes... Annabel was super playful today. Hahaz. If you're reading this, you still owe me the last digit!!! Hahaz. =P And Ying Hong? Naughty? Hahaz never would've expected...
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/30/2005 06:15:00 PM:.
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::Woke up at 8 this morning. Hahaz. But was still so tired I slumbered again after a while all the way till 10. I'm a pig. Hahaz. Yup I know. But I'm still extremely tired as I'm typing this.

None of the people I asked to go for the YC meeting came... Sucks. Andris had concerto auditions, and she got it(Congrats Andris!), and Pak Tao was at Sentosa, and Grace couldn't make it either because she couldn't get out of the house. What a sad sad situation. Hahaz. But it was okay, because Zhi Peng had like so many of his friends along that the whole thing became a Dunman reunion. Hahaz. But the number was good. 17 people. Hahaz. Only 1 RI, 1 MG, 2 Cedar and 1 RG people there. Sad sad sad. Hahaz. But it was fun. Tania was there too! She's in SAJC now. Hahaz. Would've gone there if I didn't appeal. Oh well. She looks quite different in home clothes! Hahaz. Couldn't recognise her at first, because her hair was down and I didn't dare to guess too much. Hahaz but it was her. Quite cool. She looks better than I remembered. Hahaz. Pretty sure she's pretty popular in SAJC now. Hahaz.

Then we went up to have a meeting with Mr Lam. So ideas were thrown, and apparently I was doing most of the talking(again). I'm such a wanna-be. Dunno lar... It's good to have ideas and be active. I'm the co-ordinator with Ying Hong from HCI. Hahaz. It's gonna be quite cool. Co-ordinating so many people. Hahaz. I'm gonna be stressed out this year man. Let alone next year. Hahaz.

Shirin was super fast in realising the need for taking of minutes for the meeting. Have to really thank her for that. I think she was the most organised amongst all of us. Hahaz. Tania, Phae Sia and I were having discussions on what to do about the live band thing while the meeting was on. Hahaz. Quite evil. Oh well... But I really hope we do get to send a live band...

ZOUK! Hahaz... 25 bucks... Hopefully it'll happen. I believe it will. As long as Ying Hong and I don't screw up. Hahaz. But DO GO! July 3rd. Yup. Wonderful experience. We haven't got the name OR design yet. So we'll see. =)

Went for SYO late because I was slacking at YC for waaaaaay too long. Koped a curry puff and ran to my mum's car. Hahaz. Got to know quite a few new friends. Feels fuzzy inside.

When I went to SYO everyone was looking at me. Hahaz. Yup only latecomer. Hahaz. I had better write a letter explaining why I was late. The piece they asked us to sightread was so insanely fast and I was so insanely tired that I couldn't play half the notes. I was feeling super heng that at least I got the gist of it quickly and was on time. Hahaz. And oh yes, Jonathan Lim was tapping too loudly, so Rayner asked him to stop tapping, and Jonathan exclaimed "Fuck you" back. Hahaz. Super funny situation. Hahaz

Oh well... Super super super super super tired. Father called back from abroad just now. Didn't get to know what's going on but I think he's enjoying himself. My mum made brownies again! Hahaz and she's making pineapple tarts again. =) Love eating those. Hahaz. I'm gonna be FAT! Going to gym tomorrow so hopefully I'll lose all those.... EEEWWW. Hahaz.
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/29/2005 08:11:00 PM:.
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::Wore AC pants together with RI shirt today. Hahaz. Super funny when I was sitting amidst the AC guys and expressed that I was from RI during Jazz. Hahaz. Nice reactions by all those people who were bloody shocked to find me in an attire they're not quite accustomed to. Hahaz. Kevin commented that "It just looks wrong." Even Ivee was commenting that(but then again she said it only AFTER Kevin said it.). Hahaz. Hon Loong was bloody shocked, and apparently from behind I look like Gerrard Gan. Hahaz. Funny.

Still wearing AC uniform now. Hahaz. Today I lamed around AGAIN the whole day. Yes. I officially am one of the lamest guys in class. And I realised how stressed I'll be throughout this year if I keep up with my pace of life. Jazz, Chamber and Photog are going to be heavy, especially if I want ANY committee positions in them at all, and being bio rep and chinese rep at the same time isn't very good... Two of the toughest jobs actually. AND I have the youth day extravaganza which I hope I'm heading. Plus another few things which I know will definitely come and stress the heck out of me but I have no idea what yet.

I'm already stressed, lonely, and miserable. Somebody saaaaaaaavvvvvvvveeeeeeeee me.

Did stupid things last night. Shall not explain. I thought I had a springboard. Though realising that the springs were broken, I still cleared the hurdle. But after clearing that hurdle, I found myself in front of a bigger hurdle. I'm bruised, battered and tired. What am I going to do? Why does it hurt? Just a few sentences on a special day, which could be everything is situations had changed. I'm speaking gibberish. Hahaz...

Singing too many love songs lately. We were singing during physics practical, chem tutorial and a whole lot of times. Hahaz. The singing class. Super fun. Too bad we're not joining talentime. Oh yes Mark said that talentime is a waste of his talent AND his time. Couldn't agree with him more. Hahaz...

Moonflower is the root of evil. Hahaz. I'm talking gibberish again.

I think I wanna compose a song for guitar and voice. Hahaz. Love ballad. Yes I'm mad over it. Singing too many of it DURING lessons already. Hahaz.

I'm going to fall dead from all these. I'm bruised, battered, and I desperately need a friend who can understand. At this rate of rattling this is the only thing I've got. Hahaz. But I can't say too much can I? =X

Losing hope
Is the only way to go.

For if you try and try again,
Yet never succeed
Isn't it more painful
More searing?

Do what you need
Not what you want
The path is there
For you to choose,
To carve out on your own.

- Yi Zhe
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/28/2005 08:53:00 PM:.
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::Okay... Yesterday I was too darn tired and too pissed with the comp to rewrite another blog post which was darn long. Hahaz. Stupid. Lost a poem AND a whole list of funny things which happened. Darn. Hate it when that happens.

Anyway, yesterday started pretty much without a hitch or anything. Wednesdays are always the slack days. Though I really can't remember what happened DURING school hours though. Hahaz. Weird. I think I'm too zonked out now. Oh yes... Colin kept koping my sweater, as he did today, to fight the subzero temperatures of LT1. Yup. LT1 is sooooo freaking cold. Hahaz.

Also had a rehearsal with Chen Jie and Alicia(Alisha?) for the Brahms Piano Quartett. Hahaz. Sight reading was pretty bad especially when we came to the double stops. Oh man... Realised how out of tune I am on BOTH the violin AND the viola. Need to practise more already. Yup. Hahaz. I wanted to go for archery but thought that I shouldn't pon another rehearsal for Chamber, so I didn't go for archery. Anyway, I won't have much time right? BUT Miss Ku couldn't make it for rehearsal so I was there to "enjoy" sectionals! OH MAN. Hahaz. I don't like sectionals... Especially for sightreadable pieces. Oh well.

After chamber, I didn't know what to do, so I went with Glen to the canteen, hoping to hitch a ride to the MRT from his mum. Then I met Daniel Li and Xin Yi. Again. And this time both of them were heading off to the library. Since I was horribly bored and didn't want to go home, I decided to join them. We went to the library and it was basically a suanning session for both Xin Yi and Daniel. Hahaz I didn't get suanned much because I was busy hugging the stupid COLD pillar and trying to jump off the ledge off the second floor of the library. Hahaz. And Xin Yi made Daniel smuggle in an apple for her to eat and she was threatening to throw the apple core at me each time I made fun of her. Hahaz. Luckily for me she didn't. Was teaching her chem tutorial stuff which I didn't even do myself. Ironic? Definitely. Hahaz. We spent two hours there, wasting it completely, and another hour in the canteen.

In the canteen Daniel was SWARMED by a whole bunch of J2 girls... Including, Heidi, Sherry and Bernice, the dancers from J2. Hahaz. Seriously hilarious how popular he is. Hahaz. Then Shi Haur came by and joined us to "do work". That is... if any work was done.

We then left to eat dinner and Long John's. Met OCJ on the way there. Hahaz. Good to see that he's still very much well and he's still a good teacher. Hahaz. Only thing is that I can tell that he's quite stressed. Hahaz. Hope things will get better. =)

It's quite funny that on my way home by cab, Shi Haur and I were talking quite a bit and the taxi driver thought we were good friends. Hahaz. And we just barely knew each other for a while! Hahaz. Cool. But last night was quite bad because I had to practise my violin so I had to rush home. By the end of the day I felt half-dead. Now I'm feeling like almost completely dead. I'm that tired.

Today the PA system spoilt and we had to sing the national anthem without it. At first NO ONE started singing at all and I could see Jia Lun only barely mouthing it. So I decided to try to sing with him. Quite hilarious. I started everyone singing *looks proud* and I was pretty darn loud. For a good reason too. Hahaz. Suddenly everyone followed my pulse and stuff. Hahaz. Felt quite cool. Then the TCHS guys from the class next to mine started asking me if I was patriotic and whether I want to join talentime. Oh man. The SUAN! Hahaz. But oh well. It was still quite cool.

Oh yes... Keep meeting Zi Xi around in school. Hahaz. Damn funny. Plus we have the same phones! So it gets freaky for her. And I scared her quite a no. of times by saying hi to her when she's right in front of me and completely not noticing me. Hahaz. So funny. And I scared a lot of people through the same way actually. Apparently, many people can't recognise me. Hahaz. At least on sight.

Violin lesson went pretty not bad. Hahaz. Playing Grieg Sonata now. Tough man. Hahaz. Wonder how I'm going to cope with Barber AND Mozart violin concertos. Bach partita isn't that easy either. So oh well, see you in my coffin. Hahaz

SYO... STONED for most of the time. Was wearing PE and my sweater. Hahaz... A lot of people were commenting that sweater looks cool and SHUXIANG says I look cute in it. GAY. Hahaz. No lar he's just being super suanning. Hahaz.

Man. I'm SOOOOOOOO tired. And I just made a fool out of myself. Hahaz.

I'm a BLOCKhead.

Yup.
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/27/2005 09:25:00 PM:.
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::Jaaazzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!
Hahaz
Damn heng I got in =)
Think I barely got in.
BUT!
HAPPY!!!!!!!
FLY MY TO THE MOON! Hahzz
Yup I'm mad.
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/25/2005 09:49:00 PM:.

::Should I lament about loss of sentiments? Apparently not, for accountability doesn't lie on me. But sometimes, when things go one way, things just seem so bad for you.

But! Life still goes on. Persistance is the key to anything. And I had better persist in my workout programme. I already broke it by not going to gym right now, but then again, I overworked today in school during PE(teacher killed us). Let's see. One round 2:20, next 2:10, then 2:00. Then we do jumping up the steps, and go run another 2:00, then do the repetition of the first one, PLUS 10 crunches(10 crunches here are like useless), and then go run 1.20-40 for 350m. Hahaz. Madness. THEN we had to sprint up the hill. My shin area muscles were like dying already, and my calves were dying, and there I was, sprinting up. And great, the second to reach for each pair had to do 10 pushups, did it BOTH times. >_< Then did lats rep of 12 at 60 pounds without a bloody chair. After that, walking to the canteen, I had cramps on BOTH my calves. Ouch.

Anyway, Colin felt really really sick, and light-headed. His face went completely white, and I bought his brunch for him and didn't get anything myself, ending up in me having an empty stomach later on.(Felt really bad) But feels really good when I realised that Colin is a changed person from what I knew of him before this year. Always thought he was a drifter(coined term from him)... Now I really notice the huge change in him. I think it's really great. He has a goal in life and he's being a better person for himself. It's remarkable and I wish I could do something similar, like change my whole life and be a better person. Oh wait. I supposed I did... But the change isn't that marked yet. I shall have to make it BIG, HUGE, IMPOSSIBLY GIGANTIC.

Anyway, we, Sunnie and I, were singing in maths tutorial, Qing Fei De Yi. Hahaz. Nengyang was commenting that it was insanely in tune. Hahaz. Way funny. Didn't copy any quotes today, nothing really that entertaining, though Ms Loh was... really loving politics. Then again, I'm usually the one starting on it by asking questions on it. Hahaz. Stupid me.

Jazz auditions was way fun. First was Daniel Li and me trying to harmonise and me trying to fill in for him, then was the actual audition. I screwed up. My fill-ins weren't exactly on time AT ALL(it was a tiny bit too fast) and yeah, I lost it in the end. Then when he started to play chords, I was trying to do all the notes, then screwed it quite a bit because I GOT LOST, and just let him continue on his chords. Hahaz. BUT then came the saviour. I was to do an impromptu improvisation with Daniel on the guitar, playing the chords. I started play a melody in jazz. SUPER SUPER SUPER nervous. But when I came down, some people were commenting that they liked my improv =). But whether I get in is another question. Daniel Li did really great. I guess I screwed up his part a bit by being me, but oh well, hope he didn't mind. Anyway, his improv was not bad too, really liked it. Guess he's really too darn pro. Hahaz.

Got to know a whole bunch of new friends from there. Xinyi, Ivee(refounded friend), Hui Min, Yi Wei, Maxine, Amy Tan. Super fun being extremely lame. Hahaz. Really enjoyed the jazz auditions and the time spent there. =)

Reached home at like 8+. Oh man... Hahaz. Super tired. Shall sleep earlier tonight, but I have to wait till 12 to wish Christine happy birthday. But beforehand, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE. That is if you ever come to this blog X). Hahaz.

Nothing,
Not the highest mountain,
Not the deepest valley,
Not the widest ocean,
Can keep me,
From wanting you.

- Yi Zhe

I think I belong to song writing as well =X
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/25/2005 07:49:00 PM:.

::Daylight,
Dawn breaks.

Down the beach,
Dons her soul,
Deep in thought,
Depth beyond all.

Darkness despair,
For brightness comes,
Bringing her,
Into eternal bliss.

- Yi Zhe

I'm mad about poems!


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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/25/2005 01:20:00 AM:.

::A flash in a pan,
A split second occurence,
Cannot define,
Cannot explain,
Cannot substantiate;

The wondrous moments,
The remarkable experiences,
I have shared.

A leap forward,
A step back,
A tangle,
A web,
A tear,
A fragment of my heart.

Life is just such a game,
And this round,
I can't afford to lose.

My world has crumbled,
And the sole way,
Of bringing it back,
Is to hope and pray,
For a success,
To heal thy soul.

- Yi Zhe

Poem overdose!
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/25/2005 01:03:00 AM:.
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::What is love?
What is hatred?
What are sins?
What are virtues?

Morals bound by society,
Ethics bound by laws,
Expressions bound by PAP,
Love bound by all.

If I could,
If I may,
If the chance,
Presents itself,
I will show,
My passion,
My heart,
To you,
Once more.

- Yi Zhe

I think some people will be laughing at me trying to be poetic. I'm really understanding what does "don't really care what you think" means. Hahaz. As long as I don't talk about you, there's nothing really to worry about anyway. However, if I do... I'll be terribly sorry when I read it again. Do give me time yeah? Hahaz thanks. =)
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/24/2005 11:55:00 PM:.

::Slacked the whole day today, and haven't done ANY homework. First 3 months is supposed to be about fun... Kinda. But the competition's strong I know. I'll read my notes, but sheesh... HOMEWORK!? Hahaz. Both my bro and sis, excellent scorers in their academics, told me that the first 3 months SHOULD and WOULD be for fun. It's so slack anyway. Hahaz. So I shall just understand most things, hand in a few worksheets and... End of it. Though I have to do bio though. I'm the bio rep X).

These 4 weeks of school, have been extremely stressful, especially from the 2nd week on. Hahaz. Some people might know what reasons, but it's pretty much all about what's happening in school. Yup. Oh yes, and I realised something really quite stupid, I'm getting to know more guys than girls in JC. That's absolutely phenomenal because it's going against the norm. But then again, since when was I normal? Hahaz.

Speaking about being abnormal, I'm known for STICKING to many CCAs, and I shall this year with 6 CCAs, with plans to start one. My father pushed me to go try to establish one. Perhaps you all will be able to see me one day with a CCA that I would just die to join in but doesn't exist. Yup, that's the CCA. Guess what it is?

Hahaz. I'm really starting to love RJ. Though I think I did something really bad today by giving a sarcastic comment. Think I pissed the girl off a bit. But then again, I could apologise later on, but first impression's more important so >_<. I hope I'm not dead. My reputation isn't exactly great already. I realised that if I were to actually go try for elections for Council, I'll probably end up with a NEGATIVE poll vote. Yes. That bad. Oh well. Sucks to be me? More of sucks to be them =X. Hahaz. Kidding. My life's just... Unique.

Oh yes. I'm aiming to be a wonderful person. I started the change from yesterday(yes I know I pissed someone off with that sarcastic comment, but I shall learn to be better). Lamed around so much today. And sang the school anthem at the top of my voice. Hahaz. Everyone was so amused, because I really sang with ultimate zest. Don't really know what's coming over me. I think I'm just going mad from the stress. What stress? Don't ask me, I have no idea as well(Am I good at lying?).

And oh yes, started quoting the funny jokes within class today. Nothing really that sick yet, but hilarious nonetheless. Shall post it on Glacialphoenix's quotes blog. Do click the link! It's hilarious. I'm gonna post only after I've compiled a good album of them. Yes. Hahaz. Lame and good jokes. =)

Signing off!

I know I'm stubborn,
I know I'm a mule,
But I just won't burn,
It's all about you.

Conflicting feelings,
Opposing dreams,
All I'm wishing,
Is to be the theme.

- Seow Yi Zhe

Wanna analyse? =)
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/24/2005 07:48:00 PM:.
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::Hi!
I'm back!
With a new me.
:D
Tumultous 3 weeks have left me, a shell to improve on!
Wheee
Hahaz.
Feels great to be back.
Ran 3 km today, as well as 3000 strides at resistance 6 for 2000 and 8 for 1000. Officially making a new record! Hahaz. 300 calories burnt with me sweating like a PIG.
Yes
I'm a pig
But not for long! :D
Hahaz
I'm crapping
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.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 1/23/2005 08:55:00 PM:.
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