::Sorry for not being around for quite a while...

My life has gone into a tumbling mess. Don't really have anyone to turn to now... Especially since bestie's busy with her life and I have this massive void. What makes it worse is that my family isn't exactly making anything better.

I have a feeling I should have at least gone for something in the EXCO of SYO. I didn't submit because I forgot and was too late when I remembered. Then comes the results... -_-. I feel bad already lar damn it.

And I might have to withdraw from the Vienna tour. AND might have some problems with SRP. I'm -kinda- pissed. Oh yes, and I forgot to get the form from the jazz board. How could I? I'm an idiot. I feel damn tired. I feel damn lost. Oh yes, the problems with Vienna and SRP would be due to a family trip to America on 21st May to 5th June. And there's Jazz concert and Chamber during that period. Along with a quartet I was supposed to be in for a wedding AND part of the SRP official attachment. Oh yes, to top that up, we have a wonderful GP Common Test during that period.

Wish I had someone to cry to.

It's quite amazingly alone sometimes when you find the void and you're the only one having it. Majorly.

This is like not the lowest point of my life only because I'm actually finally truly confident in myself in some things. And that I've been put up to 3rd desk for Vienna trip. =) I have chance. Hahaz. Just have to work hard.

I'm COMPLETELY exhausted and I have a massive headache everyday. I'm always this close to breaking down, and close to being insane... Happily insane.

I'm an idiot aren't I?::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 4/14/2005 10:24:00 PM:.
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::Wow.

It's quite interesting how the hate-taggers seem to be the least interesting of all, using the same words over and over again. Even gets my name right! Kudos to him/her/it/them/whatever.

Oh well... I'm actually quite used to it by now. Really seems to be the same people doing it over and over again. Apparently they have that much time to spend on me. I should feel honoured shouldn't I?

Anyway, life's been pretty good. Hahaz. Having lotsa fun(explains why I haven't been blogging). Slacking is like my biggest hobby now, and I have a tendency to not do homework. Hahaz. Oh man. =X It's quite amazing how I still survive tutorials. =)::

.:Seow Yi Zhe blogged on 4/07/2005 05:22:00 PM:.
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